Always~

I have not yet grasped this word. Always. He is always here. Always Lord? You're always here? Not when I'm stupid and fall into the same sin I already told you wouldn't do again. Not when I settle for "drive through" prayers rather then getting into my prayer closet. You cant be, no one loves that much.


Not when I was one who drove those nails into your wrist's. But you tell me You do, how can this be? How can my King and Lord, be my Comforter and my Peace? How? How, why, do You always stay here? With me and let me slap You in the face? A question I'm sure I will never know the answer to until I am with Him.


If this is true, then why do I constantly give in to satins lies? Why would I ever feel alone? I know that it is because of my flesh that I do this. The reason I think He hates me, the reason I let go. When will I finally understand that it's not me holding Him, but it's Him holding me? When will I get over my self and let Him in fully? Why do I hold back? Why do I build walls? When I know that as soon as I let them fall, He was there the whole time. Always.


He has never left me, never. He always loves me. Oh what a God we serve! What a King He is! Of course He's always here! He is perfect after all! Never leaving or forsaking us. Always holding us, comforting us.


Alone. This is the word I should not grasp. Because it is impossible for me to be alone. He is always here friends. Always.


So no matter what you are going through right now, wherever you are, He is there! You are NEVER alone! So don't be afraid, don't let satin get any part of you! Realize that no matter what happens, there is always some one who loves you. And no brokenness, no pain, no depression, no sin, NOTHING can change that.


Go before your Daddy right now, let Him wash away ever blemish, every stain, every crack, ever tare. Let Him  wipe every tear from your eyes. Peace does exist! I've felt it. And I have let it go too. And I never want to again! I always want to remember that He's right here. Always.


And I know I will fail. Like so many other times before. But by perfect grace, somehow, He will always bring me back! and that, friends is truly something to celebrate!!!


Always. Let that word seep in, through the stress, pain, and hurt. Right now let Him in, because when you do it's the best feeling you will ever have.


Thanks for stopping by, come again!


The end :)


~Wrapped in His arms~
Rachel